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| So I made it to the nursing program. Its been a month since I recieved that wonderful letter. Only things that need to be done are some paperwork and to pass my current classes. That being said my future is uncertain... | | |
| Much to my surprise I ended up achieving an A in Anatomy & Physiology and a B in Biochemistry! Thank God for extra credit and a massive grade curve! So far so good. There's only one hurdle to get over and thats A&P 2 and Nursing 215. Then its off to the nursing program :) For the rest of the month I will be getting a head start on my classes next semester. I will admit though...studying is not easy when your on break! | | |
| I've been in and out of xanga checking just one of my subscriptions. It seems that one of my xanga friends doesn't update anymore...might have even passed away seeing as the latest weblog mentioned surgery...who knows. I just wish the best for her. Anyways life has been interesting and it seems that my college career is finally worthwhile. Classes have been relatively good with mostly A's. Unfortunately the classes that count are in the Bs and hell teres even a C. I'm really hoping I'll make the program and it seems possible. There's a problem though, even if I make sicced the road to graduation only gets tougher. This means even less practice time for my band and virtually no social life. I really hope this all pays off in the end. I've been a real fool this past few months. I constantly struggle with my sins and faith yet I don't turn for help. Smites I'm even proud of my acts. Reading the Bible is almost never done and it scares me. Its funny how I keep praying to the Lord for guidance, strength, and academic success but I never do anything in return for Him. Sometimes it might just be my tracker in grades this semester. I have doubts that I will do well however my grades suffice. Consequently my grades could be better and it greatly impacts my chance to get into the program. I guess I'm angry at God for putting me in limbo...for making me uncertain about my future. If I don't succeed I have no idea what to do with my life. Nursing is the only thing I'm really interested in. There's also philosophy and music but I lack in musical talent. Moreover I won't be able to do anything occupation wise with philosophy. So its a dead end and I won't be fancily supported forever. Specifically this college semester has been stressful. I haven't been able to make outstanding friends. No dates except for that one girl who I can't stand anymore. Dating is on hold for now and knowing Liberty its going to be a long time before anything happens. On a funnier note alot of guys on campus are going bonkers for this really emo looking chick. They don't admit it but nearly every guy on the Circle and Quads knows who it is. I've talked to this girl, and shes sweet but talks like a pothead. Her boyfriend isn't to fond of me I could tell. Darn I should be studying now. As of this moment a relative of mine is being picked up at the airport. I have no idea who he is. Perhaps an energy drink will help... | | |
| Life is full of great mysteries and profound experiences. Everybody has their shortcomings in life and we often wonder how to reduce them. Some turn to the media, scientific authority, friends, family, and anyone else who seems trustworthy for reliable answers. Depending on who you ask you may get answers such as, "work hard" followed by "do your best" and best of all "beat out the competition"! Now while these answers seem adequate there is one advice that shakes me to the core and that is....be confident. I will attempt to show the reader why this is the most absurd BS you will ever come across.
Many have heard the term confidence but few know how to properly define it hell, even fewer can use it in proper context. Confidence is basically the amount of insecurities you have vs. how much you don't have. Thats what it really comes down to. Now what did I mean by context? When people talk about confidence they usually mean social confidence. Which means you can be "confident" of your abilities to make the gnarliest farts but it adds up to nothing if you aren't supported for your acts.
Therefore it can be inferred that your confidence is mostly caused by either approval or rejection of others. As the great Al E said: confidence is a byproduct of success. (Al E is a blogger who has mentioned this subject in another blog) Think about it for a second, name some of the most confident people you know famous or otherwise. What do you see in these people? These people are usually treated well or at least held in high esteem. Success breeds success and its no wonder that success is correlated with confidence. However as I wrote down before confidence is a byproduct of success not the other way around.
I will most likely continue this topic and add some real life experiences too. Stay tuned... | | |
| Yesterday marks the first time I ever got drunk. My friend and I went to this outstanding bar that doesn't card if you tip well. Thats my type of service :) NO I am not upset about my life although it could be better but I was just curious. My first beer made me buzzed which is a fantastic feeling mind you but after the second I was a little tipsy. Upon finishing my third beer I felt some unsatisfactory bowel movement. I was already losing muscle coordination and my face felt very numb. I started projecting my voice louder while having unwarranted amounts of confidence. I didn't even mind walking through the scorching 95 degrees of hell that awaited me outside. Lots of cool stuff occurred yet I don't feel like writing down because 1) I need to salvage any dignity I have left and 2) Nobody reads my crap anyway :) | | |
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